you can't even be nice to old people

well, greg's grandmother called me thursday begging to see  allie and brody. Me being sympathetic to old people told her she could keep them this past weekend, but they were not to leave with Greg and she promised. She proceeded to say some not so nice things about her grandson that doesn't even have a job and doesn't support his children.I do have sole custody and he has supervised visitations and he is not aloud to leave with him. I called and checked on them each day and she said they were fine and how much she was enjoying them. Sunday I get a text message from Greg saying he got the kids. Without my permission went and got my babies on Saturday and I had no idea until Sunday morning.  He would not answer my phone calls and would not respond to my text. i was a histarical. I mean any mother can only imagine someone taking your children and you not even knowing where they are.  They finally have Allie to call me that afternoon. My six year old baby girl was saying that I was mean and her daddy had tried to call but i wouldn't let him talk to her and he's tried to get her but I wouldn't let him. As she is saying these things to me Greg's fiance is high fiving my daughter.  Really?!?! What adult,mother, human being does that.  She really needs to put herself in my shoes.Not only did they kidnap my kids, they tell them lies about there mother who is the the only one who takes care of them and supports them. They borrowed money from and have yet to pay me back not to mention all the child support he owes me.  How would she feel if I had her daughter and had her  tell her to go get back on that stripper pole. And then gave her a high five. That is trash. Well I got my kids back thankfully and I learned a valuable lesson, you can't even trust and be nice to old people. I won't make that mistake again. I hope they enjoyed that one day with them because he won't have an opportunity to take them from me again. So, that was my Sunday. I was a complete mess, stressed out, couldn't eat, and ended up with a migraine.  Glad it's over.

wonder how many threats I'll get after this????

I wasn't gonna blog today, but I thought I would vent for a minute. Well, most of you know who Allie and Brody's dad is, but for the sake of his privacy, lets call him LOSER!! For those who don't know here's a recap of mine and losers past:  I have 2 babies with him (allie & brody), we were married for too many years, and we divorced. I tried to make it work, but when your taking care of three babies by yourself and your husband stays gone for weeks at a time, its takes a toil on your relationship. Oh, I failed to mention his cheating, lying, and "other" habits.  Yep, he cheated and I took him back, what an idiot I was! hmm one good example of his lies, for a month he got up everyday for work and would come home sooo tired I would have to take kids to the other room, to come and  find out he had lost that job because he failed a drug test. So, I followed him the next day (when he was going to work) and yeah, he was going to a girls house....and I stayed with him, what an idiot.  Well, his "other" habit, I really hate to put out people's dirty laundry, so I won't go into too much detail, but if you've seen him, that's enough said!!!! 
well, our marriage ended (wah, wah) that's really not what is on my mind.  What I can't seem to accept is him abandoning his 2 children. When we divorced, he did his partying and seen them occasionally. Then, He started being a dad again, and he was always a dad to Alec, I will give him props for that.  He was back in there lives and even though it wasn't your tradional family it was your traditional divorced family, which made me happy for the kids. Well, he has moved on in his life and our kids are not any priority to him at all. He went about 6 months without calling or seeing them, while I listened to my babies crying and asking me why they can't see their dad.  He called a few months ago, wanting to see the children, claiming he wanted to be apart of their lives again. I was very hesitant about it, but I explained to him that this would be your last chance. I told him about all the hurt he had caused them and if he was going to be apart of their lives it was going to be every other weekend. I made sure he comprehended the fact that this would be the last time I gave him an opportunity to be a daddy to them. I mean if he can only be there at his convience, than that does them more harm than good.  He was a dad for maybe 2 months, now it's back to nothing. He doesn't call, try to see them, or support them. He didn't hear Allie ask me last night will she ever be able to see her daddy again.  He didn't hear Brody crying for him last week because he wants to see him. And he doesn't see Alec stepping up and loving those babies like loser should be doing!! As much as it hurts, He will NOT get another chance. There is no room for a part time dad at our house.  Next time he calls crying, he'll here the dialtone. I have NO respect for him. He can put on a good show for people and deep down I want to believe he is a good person, but he is not any kind of daddy to my babies.  there is no exscuses for him, just the simple word....pathetic.  My babies will realize one day, that they did nothing to deserve this. I just have to show them extra love since it is only me there.  to be continued... (oh and I could say so much worse, so if you don't like what you read, sorry but keep it to yourself nobody asked you to read it)

my best friend

Not throwing a pity party for myself everyone has had it rough, just gonna give you a "small" amount of info. on my past so you can see the reason I am the way I am.

My best friend, the one person who always was there for me, died in a car accident when we were in tenth grade. We met in 5th grade and spent all of our summers together. She absolutly loved cheering as much as I did (which was hard to do)!! The night she passed away, we were suppose to spend the night at her sister's house, but I never called her back.  Yep, that still haunts me. When I found out that she was gone, my life changed from that day forward.  It's weriod what an impact she made on me, but I think of her everyday. A part of me died that night. I know it's hard for people to understand why she meant that much to me, but she was the one person I could tell everything to and she never judged me. She read her bible every morning before school, and not only did she tell her family, she also told me whe was going to die young. She told me what cheerleading outfit she wanted to be burried in and I told her family. We didn't talk about God, Jesus, or the Bible in our house growing up, and she was always so worried about me. She always wanted to tell me about God, and would ask me if I was saved.  I can remember laying in my bad and her asking me if I was saved and if I believed in God, and I replied" well, I say my prayers every night." At 14, I didn't have any clue to what she was talking about.  But when she passed, I knew then. I couldn't have gotten through that without God.  Every word she had ever said to me, all came back.  She touched many people's lives, but I believe I was one reason for her being here. I named my little girl after her, Allie Camille.  I can't wait for the day when I will see her again. She was an Angel on earth and now she is in heaven, watching over my family. I love you dearly, Camille Renee' Sellers

short and sweet intro

Ok. so, it's going to take me a minute to learn this. and most of you may not care about my blogs but I  think they're going to be very interesting and i'm going to tell all. some boring, some about my sorry baby daddy, who knows...anyways you were warned